DAY 3: HOW CAN I NOT KNOW MY HOME?
Just the question disturbs me. Is something wrong with me?
While I know part of the answer, it still does not bring me comfort. I want to know the total, complete, deep answer—not one that merely skims the surface.
I will unveil this answer in the days and weeks to come. However, I will start today.
WHAT IS HOME, A BEGINNING DEFINITION:
THOUGHTS ON HOME
I firmly believe where I live is home. Period. End of story.
But, is there more to home than walls, roof, furniture, and stuff?
I also believe I can make anywhere home. Home is a choice in this regard and is what I choose to make of it. After all, home is wherever my husband and me are at the time (plus critters, of course).
I also believe that home is my country, the United States of America.
Home is also a state and a city. It can include the house you live in, but in some circumstances, it does not. My life is one of those, by the way. I have a house that I call home, but know that it is temporary. Therefore, city and state do not fully stand out as home to me. We can leave at any time in 2-3 years from the time we set up our home. We've been here in Virginia since July 2011.)
I also think home is where you live when you retire and where you plan to live out your years.
But, there is another home that goes much deeper than any building, person, critter, city, state, or nation. But, it includes them as well. It is where you want to live. It is your dream home in your dream location with the version of happily-ever-after you choose. It holds your stuff, your mind, and your heart. It is where and when you are most content. This is the all-encompassing, heaven-on-earth home. Or is it?
Home is where I can really, fully be me. It is where I can live the freest and constantly gain inspiration. Home is where I can dream dreams and make them come true. It is a safe haven and a place of wonder.
It is also where I can let go and have peace. Home is where I can be content at all times. It is a place for making memories and enjoying life. Home is simple and keeps complications at the door. It is where my heart resides and is where my mind can roam. Home is where my husband and I live and is where we can be. Home is not where you waste your life, but is where you truly live it. Home was heaven on earth. Or at least that was what is should represent.
I sure do not have such a place in my life yet--a place to reach that state of being and creativity, of contentment, of proper perspective and insight, or of belonging... except at Historic Jamestown in Virginia. How could Jamestown, of all places, be home? That didn't /doesn't make sense to me and it still doesn't make complete sense. But, I am starting to grasp it.
JOURNALING EXERCISE
Grab your journal and your favorite beverage of choice and journal your responses to each of the following:
~ Journal about whatever came to mind while reading today's reading.
~ When you think of "home," what do you think of? Write your answer for at least 10 minutes. If you get stuck, ask yourself the original question again and write anything that comes to mind. (NOTE: This is called a SOC Journaling or a Stream of Consciousness Journaling.).
~ How would you define home? Be specific and go into great detail.
~ Do you have one or many homes? What are they? Describe in great detail adn sue the 6 senses.
~ Describe your dream home. Is it feasible? Will you ever be able to have it--or are you living in it now?
~ Where is it that you want to retire? Why? Go into great detail.
(Written 27-28 November 2012.)
Stacy Duplease
Journalkeeper & Author
Journalkeeper & Author
The Remembering Your Present Journal Keeping Series
Email: storykeeper2121@gmail.com
dba Remembering Your Present, LLC & Storykeeper 2121
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